Alexzandra/Alex. 17. Connecticut. Complete music geek. Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. One Direction. Shows. Hardcore jams. Solid bass beats. Straight Edge. Snowboarding. Pole vaulting. Blonde moments.
My blog consists of all of that and a lot more.
Can't say I didn't warn ya :)
Sorry…3 months later and yeah I’m still a mess.
I should just get off tumblr. I’m doing this to myself.
I need to trust God a lot better.
I’m awful. So awful. Just looked back at my posts about when he and I were going through a hard time. I shouldn’t have slandered him like that. Sometimes the hard times are easier to talk about than the good times. I’m so ashamed of the anger I had towards him. If I could take back the times I was mad at him I would. He was a great boyfriend. I’m sorry if I ever made him out to be a bad guy. There were times of hurt but the world didn’t need to know. If he saw those posts even now I would have no explanation besides I’m so sorry. He was a great boyfriend, I don’t want to remember the hard times.
I wasn’t handling things like a mature Christian. I forgive him for the sadness, if I could only take back time and love him better, I would.
I’m sorry Robert. I don’t regret you.
(also all my post about one direction are stupid lol)
I guess I don’t really use this anymore, maybe that’s a good thing; too many memories.
Well, I’ve been in Canada for 3 months at Word of Life Bible Institute and God has been transforming me so much. It’s been really hard, but in the end it’s all for His glory.
I just looked at my last post about me leaving, I wrote it in August the day before I left. It breaks my heart.
I had to breakup with my incredible boyfriend. My first love and a really great guy. That was early in September right when I got here and I still cry my eyes out. It’s the best for us though. God has a plan. It’s really hard thinking He has a plan when all this hurt is happening, but it’s trust in Him that gets you through the tough times. Lessons are learned.
I’m not sure how much I’ll actually be using tumblr again. I just figured I’d stop by. I haven’t been able to blog out my feelings about leaving my first love. It really hurts. Still trying to deal with my first broken heart. And I’ll be home in a week to face it all. I’m scared. But by God’s grace I can do it.
Idk where I’m going with this. Guess I forgot how to blog. You’ve probably forgotten about me lol. Follow me on INSTAGRAM! (same name as here)
Canada is beautiful by the way. I am blessed to be studying God’s word in this lovely country. He has to break me before He can build me. Learning to become the woman He wants me to be.
"We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies."
2 Corinthians 4:8-10